My days .

10th of July 2010 - had soooooo muchh fun skating with my honey bees , Aziera , Amira and Hazeera . Happy Birthday to Hazeera and Aziera . Birthday dekat2 and nama pun enn . Thanks for the great time guys (: loveyoubabes .

11th of July 2010 - was one of my wonderful days in my life . spent my time with him was sooo.. haa.. i dont know how to describe . but my mood changed when he went home at 3 p.m. ): but at least he spent every second of his time with me that day . iloveyou !

12th of July 2010 - bad day . but after buka puasa , greaattt ! 

13th of July 2010 - i dont know . bad day i guess . demam . the best thing , my BELOVED friends , prank me .

"Weyh , kitorang da dalam bas . nak gerak dah . baek kau cepat ohh !" 

babi laa korang ! penat aku lari ! Aziera , kau da membazirkan 1sen kau . Fit , idea kau bernas . Ikhmal , best gelakkan aku ? Hehh . HAHAHAHAH ! sampai mati aku ingat la korang , haha :D

14th of July 2010 - hacccuuuuuummmmmmmm ! sick sooooo badly ):

*newpoemcomingsoon*

This is for You ♥

Let us see .

Take a look at us .

Open your eyes .

I am here by your side .

Every second of my life is only for you .

Take my hand .

Let's make a story .

A story that never ends .

No one else I could see when 

you caught me in the eyes .

There's nothing else I can say as I

am paralyzed by your smile .

By the time you take my hand ,

Then you hug me warmly from the back

Gently , you hold me close and there ...

A sweet kiss from you .

For God sake , I always need you here with me .

Dear , I LOVE YOU SO MUCH ♥

9.9.2010

Poemsi Bodoh .

Check this out , sumpah bodoh aku tetiba . Penganggur terhebat dekat skola en , tercipta lah sebuah poem dan puisi yang digabungkan menjadi poemsi (:
Weyh , BM aku sumpah jiwang doe xD

People ,
They're just human .
Serba kekurangan dan penuh teka-teki .
Some people cry to show their pain .
Some people just sit down and stay silent .
Ada pula yang mengukirkan senyuman palsu untuk
menyembunyikan segala duka dan kesengsaraan .
Tidak lupa ,
Ada yang mencederakan diri kerana rasa bersalah 
yang menyelubungi diri atas tindakan sendiri .
People are different .

Me ,
Aku tiada pendirian .
When the sorrow come to smash all my happiness .
I can't feel my legs standing on the earth .
Kaku . Lemah . Sakit .
Tidak terdaya untuk bangun . Menjerit .
All I can do is sit down in a dark room .
Alone .
Ditemani bebola kristal yang jatuh perlahan-lahan
dari mataku tanpa ku sedari .

All I see is
What people did to me .
All I hear is
What people said about me or my life or
anything that I know .
Semua itu hanyan menlunturkan kepercayaanku .
Melumpuhkan seluruh fizikal ku .
Akal . Tak mampu lagi berfikir .
Kaki . Tak mampu lagi berjalan .
Mulut . Tak mampu lagi bersuara .
Hati . Tak mampu lagi menanggung .
Hurt . Terlalu pedih .

Since the day I knew you .
Everything has change .
Now . I know what's important .
When troubles come , I know what to do .
Segala mulut yang berbicara .
Takkan ku dengar .
Segala mata yang memandang ,
Takkan ku lihat .
Segala fitnah yang menimpa ,
Hanya mendiam ?
Tidak ...
Aku hanyalah aku dan tiada siapa yang menentukan
jalan hidupku .
It's my life and I am the one who controls it .

People ,
They're just human .
Biarkan .
Hanya senyum dengan segala masalah yang datang (:

7.7.2010 (:

Idiot Problems !

OH LOOK ! 

Look at all the probs over there !

Some of them are mine .

HAHAHAHA ! 

They seem so innocent .

They don't even want to exist in this world .

They know that humans hate them .

But why are they here ?

Well ,

WE'RE the one who bring them into this cruel world , RIGHT ?

You see ,

They hate us , actually .

That is why , 

They make us cry and suffer .

Sometimes , they turn us into a psycho , problematic and CRAZY person .

But I don't get it !

Why are we still calling them ?

How we're such a fool .

I am sick and tired of all the problems that Im facing .

So , if I see them running to me ,

I just wanna laugh at them !

P/s : I don't know what I'm writing . Sorry if it seems stupid to you guys :D

3rd of July 2010

Im sory . I just don't know what to do .

ToPeopleYangBerkenaan .

I am sory for whatever I did . I know I knew nothing about you guys . But , what I see is what I get .
What do you really want me to do ? Leave him alone ? We're just friends .
Girl ,
I dont want us to be enemy dear friend )';

1st July 2010 .

You , Read this .

It's true ,

That I love you since the end of last year till now in 2010 .

Sometimes ,

I try so hard to deny about the love that I have for you .

Everyday ,

People see the pain I suffer without your here with me .

Until ,

They can see all the fake and the lies in my innocent eyes .

But ,

I have to continue the journey of my life no matter how hard it takes .

Maybe ,

With my new lover and make a new love story with him .

Or ,

Just me alone here with my pencil and a piece of paper .

28.6.2010

P/s : Im sory .

...Because when I see you , I see happiness

You come to me with a warm smile .

When I'm feeling empty and heartless .

And then you look right into my eyes .

So I stare at you without blinking .

Then I hear my soul whisper ,

" he is here to cure the pain

and fill the emptiness ."

I believe and so I smile .

Walking through the distance with you ,

Not realizing how short the time is ,

I don't want this moment to end ,

Because when I see you , I see happiness .

26.6.2010

A Little Bird in A Cage .

I'm just a little bird .

Locked up in the cage .

A cage that covered with a black cloth .

Alone here with a lot of wishes .

I wish to fly in sea .

I wish to swim in the sky .

Chirping with other birdie .

Make friends with the firefly.

Fly away to the beehive .

Say hello to the bees.

I'll colour the world with the golden honey .

How sweet would that be .

But those are just my fairytale .

When I wake up and open my eyes ,

I'm just a little bird locked up in the cage .

Alone here with a lot of wishes .

7.6.2010

Incomplete

When troubles surrounded me ,

When fears came near me ,

When sorrow tried to kill me ,

And when pain was inside my heart .

That's the time when I needed you so much .

But then ,

* I can't complete this poem )'; *

5.6.2010

I just don't know what's happening to me today . Separuh gila I guess . I never felt this way before . But today ..

Sometimes I cried , scream , marah-marah , bengang , empty and bla bla bla . I just hit the wall 7 times and now my knuckles are all red and swollen . I don't know why . I know what I did was so so so stupid . Almost psycho . But ARRGGHHH !

5.6.2010

Bakar Result .

Im at school . Stress with this place . Well , the story begins ,
AKU NAK JE BAKAR SEMUA EXAM PAPERS ! Ohmygod . Sape suka exam tu mmg PSYCHO !
But.. Never mind .. what can I do ? Nothing can change my marks . Except for work harder for the next test . Have to be more serious . I really need to change . Sejarah notes and excercises , Science graphics and notes , Agama notes , KH notes . Goshh .. Lot's of job . Nak lagi Kerja Kursus Sejarah and Kajian Geografi Tempatan . WHAT THE HELL ?!


p/s : Im still gonna bakar the papers !

Children . Kanak-kanak

Kids . I love them . They're so innocent . Free from mistakes . Except for silly mistakes .

Innocent eyes , sincere smile , but they're not a good listener as they don't understand what are we saying -.-'

Their cute giggles , the joys they had , their laughs that break the silence , make the world brights .

Free from problems , love to make friends , rarely fights , I wish I could bring back my childhood days .

Now I'm 14 and my heart is empty . Heartless I guess .

2.6.2010

Hard .

Life is not that easy .

Poems are not always beautiful .

Melody is not always rhyme . 
Answers are not always right .

Sky is not always blue .

But sun is always bright ,

just like my love for you .

1.6.2010 (:

Today . I saw you .

I saw you today walking in front of my class . Well , what's the purpose of you're passing by ? Is it because the stairs is near to your class ? Or is it because you're trying to give me a good morning look ?

I saw you again this morning walking at the canteen . When I was buying my drink and then you walked behind me . Were you trying to hide ? Or it's just meant to be for no reason ?

Will I get to see you this afternoon ? Maybe you could give me your good bye look ? And I could give you my good bye smile ? But .. naaahh.. Impossible .

31.5.2010 (:

Hello Sunshine (:

Its been so long I didnt post anything here . A place where I let go my feelings , but not secrets .

Well , I've been through a very hard time this May 2010 . Many things happened to me myself , my family , my friends and the one I love . I never led a perfect life . But all the problems that I faced , thought me about the real journey of life .

18th May 2010 - al-Fatihah for my grandfather . I didn't get to see him for the last time , but I believe that he knows I'm always here to pray for him (':

25th May 2010 - Amir my brother had his first operation at his leg . He's only 7 and he had to suffer like a dying old man . But , everything was okay (:

SHE , who used to be my bestfriend betrayed me as she told all my big secrets to my ex-bf . PFFT ! Such a bitch . Well , it's not only me who hate her .

HE , I always thought that I could be with him , but no . He left me again without saying goodbye . Maybe we are meant to be apart . But he , will always be my number one . Now , I just want to get rid of him from my mind . Although I always know that I coudn't have any effort to do it . But somehow I will always try my best to let this feelings flutter away .

Another HE , had a new life with her . But everytime when I see him with her , I am not strong to stand on my own feet . He seems so happy and they look sweet together . Well , she's the one who grows the roses in his heart , not me .

Exams sucks . I failed my math for the first time . And now I'm looking for a superduper reasons to tell my Dad . But please , I don't wanna lose my phone !

I've been writing a lot of poems lately . But I don't feel like showing it to anyone . Maybe some .

Huh .

My Life Pocket !

This book is apart of my life .

(:

WHY ?

this is for someone whom i knew him since last year . but i guess it's been so long ,, i tak cakap or contact dia .

ANY ADVICE ? hahah !

here we go ...

Why ,

When you text me ,

I felt so happy ?

Why ?

When you say my name ,

I felt so nervous ?

Why ,

When you make a joke ,

I burst into a huge laugh ?

Why ,

When you care for me ,

I felt like you're right beside me ?

Why ,

When you said that you miss me ,

I miss you more ?

Why ?

When you said that you love me ,

I felt so real ?

Why ?

When you hug me in the rain ,

I can feel the warm from your soul ?

Why ?

When you punch me through my heart ,

I felt the pain so deeply ?

Why ?

Our friendSHIP came to the end of

the darkness island ?

-FifiIzzati-

You're not here by my side .

the stars are gone ,
the moon is not smiling ,
the sun is unhappy ,
that's because you're not here by my side .

the birds are not singing ,
not a single melody ,
not even flying in the soft sky ,
that's because you're not hear by my side .

the rain keep falling and it doesn't seem to stop ,
no rainbow across the gray cloud ,
i am cold and hoping for you to wrap me in your arms ,
but you're not here by my side .

the wind moves so strong ,
no fingers that would remove my hair from my eyes ,
the dead leaves are flying freely in the air ,
i'm walking alone by the sidewalk .

-FifiIzzati-

A girl that i miss .

Do you still remember our first year in high school ?
Where I thought it was still my childhood days ,
When the first time I saw you and thought that you're a good girl ,
Your eyes seem so innocent .

Do you still remember when the first time I saw you crying ?
That's the day when we started to become closer ,
When I was listening to you and your tears fell slowly through your cheeks ,
I was so worried and asked you to stop crying but you still continue to cry .

I miss seeing your angry face ,
I miss hearing your laughs in the class ,
I miss your adorable giggles ,
I miss listening to your babbles every morning .


The girl who would hear my pain ,
The girl who kept calling me with names ,
The girl who put her secrets in my pocket ,
The girl who sometimes laughs at my poems ,
I miss her so dearly .


I didn't realize that one year had gone ,
We rarely talk and when we meet ,
You seems so busy with your friends ,
The reason that I was afraid to disturb you ,
I never wanted for us to be in the different class .

I wish our childhood days would come back for us ,

Save some smile of yours for me . ♥


  

-FifiIzzati-

Ameera Badreena ,

May we be bestfriends for life (:

I  ♥  You .

 

He's no more with me .

To my dearest ,
I will always remember you .
You're the best and i'm not lying .
eventhough now that both of us da takda pape , but i still wanna be friends with you. But why you seems to hate me so much ? i know it's my fault . and i'm sorry .

School -.-'

To All people, friends and enemy =P Ahah !
Im ready for school.. Are you ready for school ?
Ehee XD