Im sory . I just don't know what to do .

ToPeopleYangBerkenaan .

I am sory for whatever I did . I know I knew nothing about you guys . But , what I see is what I get .
What do you really want me to do ? Leave him alone ? We're just friends .
Girl ,
I dont want us to be enemy dear friend )';

1st July 2010 .

You , Read this .

It's true ,

That I love you since the end of last year till now in 2010 .

Sometimes ,

I try so hard to deny about the love that I have for you .

Everyday ,

People see the pain I suffer without your here with me .

Until ,

They can see all the fake and the lies in my innocent eyes .

But ,

I have to continue the journey of my life no matter how hard it takes .

Maybe ,

With my new lover and make a new love story with him .

Or ,

Just me alone here with my pencil and a piece of paper .

28.6.2010

P/s : Im sory .

...Because when I see you , I see happiness

You come to me with a warm smile .

When I'm feeling empty and heartless .

And then you look right into my eyes .

So I stare at you without blinking .

Then I hear my soul whisper ,

" he is here to cure the pain

and fill the emptiness ."

I believe and so I smile .

Walking through the distance with you ,

Not realizing how short the time is ,

I don't want this moment to end ,

Because when I see you , I see happiness .

26.6.2010

A Little Bird in A Cage .

I'm just a little bird .

Locked up in the cage .

A cage that covered with a black cloth .

Alone here with a lot of wishes .

I wish to fly in sea .

I wish to swim in the sky .

Chirping with other birdie .

Make friends with the firefly.

Fly away to the beehive .

Say hello to the bees.

I'll colour the world with the golden honey .

How sweet would that be .

But those are just my fairytale .

When I wake up and open my eyes ,

I'm just a little bird locked up in the cage .

Alone here with a lot of wishes .

7.6.2010

Incomplete

When troubles surrounded me ,

When fears came near me ,

When sorrow tried to kill me ,

And when pain was inside my heart .

That's the time when I needed you so much .

But then ,

* I can't complete this poem )'; *

5.6.2010

I just don't know what's happening to me today . Separuh gila I guess . I never felt this way before . But today ..

Sometimes I cried , scream , marah-marah , bengang , empty and bla bla bla . I just hit the wall 7 times and now my knuckles are all red and swollen . I don't know why . I know what I did was so so so stupid . Almost psycho . But ARRGGHHH !

5.6.2010

Bakar Result .

Im at school . Stress with this place . Well , the story begins ,
AKU NAK JE BAKAR SEMUA EXAM PAPERS ! Ohmygod . Sape suka exam tu mmg PSYCHO !
But.. Never mind .. what can I do ? Nothing can change my marks . Except for work harder for the next test . Have to be more serious . I really need to change . Sejarah notes and excercises , Science graphics and notes , Agama notes , KH notes . Goshh .. Lot's of job . Nak lagi Kerja Kursus Sejarah and Kajian Geografi Tempatan . WHAT THE HELL ?!


p/s : Im still gonna bakar the papers !

Children . Kanak-kanak

Kids . I love them . They're so innocent . Free from mistakes . Except for silly mistakes .

Innocent eyes , sincere smile , but they're not a good listener as they don't understand what are we saying -.-'

Their cute giggles , the joys they had , their laughs that break the silence , make the world brights .

Free from problems , love to make friends , rarely fights , I wish I could bring back my childhood days .

Now I'm 14 and my heart is empty . Heartless I guess .

2.6.2010

Hard .

Life is not that easy .

Poems are not always beautiful .

Melody is not always rhyme . 
Answers are not always right .

Sky is not always blue .

But sun is always bright ,

just like my love for you .

1.6.2010 (:

Today . I saw you .

I saw you today walking in front of my class . Well , what's the purpose of you're passing by ? Is it because the stairs is near to your class ? Or is it because you're trying to give me a good morning look ?

I saw you again this morning walking at the canteen . When I was buying my drink and then you walked behind me . Were you trying to hide ? Or it's just meant to be for no reason ?

Will I get to see you this afternoon ? Maybe you could give me your good bye look ? And I could give you my good bye smile ? But .. naaahh.. Impossible .

31.5.2010 (: